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I drew this in my sketchbook last night. A finished piece will happen soon. I’m back in another phase of being excited about drawing. (I’m sorry if you see this twice, dear tumblrs.)
I’ve been wanting a bird tattoo for ages.
I would genuinely have this inked on me for life.
I haven’t thought about this as much as I’d like, and I don’t doubt that the plan will have
changed in 20 years, but for now, this would be nice.
Firstly, when I die, I want all my organs and donatable parts taken by the NHS and put to good use.
The donor card is in my wallet if you need a look.
Anything that is left, I want cremating, but not in a church or chapel, and not as part of a ceremony.
I don’t want anyone around for that.
Instead, I want my ashes given to my other half, and when they’re ready, I want the scattering the ashes to be my funeral. That’s when I want all my family and friends to get together.
Though I haven’t decided where I want it to be yet, I know it will be somewhere beautiful and significant to me. If I haven’t decided by the time I die, I’m sure those closest to me will have some idea. I trust them to let go of me in the right place.
I would really like a few people to speak about me after the ashes have been scattered. If I’m wrong and there is a life after death, and I can look down on the Earth, I’d really like to hear someone speak about me from the heart.
Truly, my ideal government would be no government - Anarchism - Not as it is perceived and portrayed, but in it’s true form - The relative harmony that could exist within real freedom - A society based on trust and the notion that, given the chance, humans could live relatively peacefully side by side.
However, while I am an eternal optimist, I do see the flaws in this plan. I feel like anarchy would work best with small groups of people, a few hundred at most, in their own communes or spaces - Not as to isolate - people could of course travel freely - But so that a strong sense of community and familiarity can develop and be maintained, and so that any ‘exploitation’ would bring little ‘reward’. I am also aware that, due to what is now so ingrained in society’s consciousness as ‘normal’ and ‘worthwhile’ - That is, the ‘ideals’ of ‘Democracy’, Capitalism, consumerism, etc - The idea of transitioning an increasingly globalised society of 6 billion people with many different views seems insane at best. Especially when competitiveness, cynicism to change, and an extreme placement of ‘value’ on the concept of currency, is socialised into us from birth and reinforced every day throughout our lives.
As a compromise, my preference could be swayed towards the ideals and working of Soicalism. Specifically Revolutionary Socialism as the long term goal, paying particular attention to the failings of Communism in the eastern bloc being laregly due to the fact that several corrupt figures attempted to fit Marxist ideas within the structure already created by Democracy and Capitalism.
I believe that the model we currently base our society on is immoral and damaging to the vast majority of the Earth’s population - The evidence for this can be seen all over the world. The model needs to be completely deconstructed, and a completely new model - That of Socialism, needs to replace it entirely. I would to see that - A world ordered around community rather than capital.
Many find this naive, and while that makes me angry, I also understand. Revolutionary Socialism would be such a huge step, or rather, millions of tiny little steps, and such hard work - A task involving the whole world. It’s easy to feel daunted by that and I often do, but I believe the political systems of the world as they are are damaging. Even countries as ‘developed’ as the US and the UK do not deliver the Democracy they advertise - Much of the world is at war, most of it’s population are hungry, exploited or oppressed.
My ideal government would be one that didn’t take these things as ‘facts of life’, because they are not.
Goodbye Granda.
Goodbye Sunderland.
Goodbye Brighton.
Goodbye Self-loathing.
Goodbye Self-doubt.
Goodbye Self-criticism.
Goodbye Procrastination.
Goodbye Pessimism.
Goodbye Perfectionism.
Goodbye Myspace.
Goodbye Childhood.
Goodbye Virginity.
Goodbye Low motivation.
Goodbye Wasting time.
Goodbye Hurting myself.
Goodbye Guilt trips.
Goodbye Overanalysing.
Goodbye Worthless kisses.
Goodbye All those crushes.
Goodbye Pointless complaints.
Goodbye Taking everything personally.
Goodbye Being stubborn and defensive.
Goodbye Thinking I’m not good enough.
Goodbye Making promises I can’t keep.
Goodbye Anything and everything that hurts me.
Dear Holly Brown, age 11,
Take a deep breath.
The next 5 years is going to see a lot of shit flying your way. The important thing to remember is that you’re better than it, and you’re going to come out the other side a stronger person, that much closer to knowing and loving herself.
Don’t waste your time trying to get anyone’s respect - That will come when you no longer need it.
Love Holly Brown, age 19.
Dear Holly Brown, age 10,
Don’t bother bending over backwards for them. If they really cared about you, you wouldn’t have to - They treat you like a lacky and a plaything, like a bad joke.
You know it, so walk away.
When K pulls your pants down, embarrasing you for a laugh, you should have walked away and not looked back. Best friends don’t do that shit. Solitude suits you, and you’ll be fine on your own for a while - You’ll meet the friends worth spending all your time with soon enough.
You look up to K, C and R, so much, but they have a lot of growing to do before they’re worth your time.
Love Holly Brown, age 19.
Dear Holly Brown, age 9,
Now’s where it really gets mean, competitive and judgemental. You dealt with it well. Everyone around you is becoming cruel and you don’t know why.
Stay trusting. Stay true to yourself.
You’re not what you’re ‘supposed to be’ in their eyes, but even though it’ll take you years yet to realise it, you are really something. Don’t let them bring you down.
And those boys? The ones that are two years older than you and twice your size? Don’t feel bad for telling the teachers about them. They’re awful people who treated you in a way you didn’t deserve. And when the teachers don’t do anything? Don’t feel bad about kicking them in the shins. You can work on your non-violent stance later in life.
Love Holly Brown, age 19.
